I did something I haven’t done in a very long time.
I managed to completely forget my meds on Wednesday. Morning AND night (though morning is just synthroid; the really important ones are the nighttime meds…) I haven’t done that in ages. Honestly, the only time I don’t take my meds is if I’m actively throwing up, and as soon as I can keep food down, I take my medicine, too.
Oddly enough, I felt GREAT on Friday. Somewhat manic, though, and thankfully, that has passed. I’m glad I went manic instead of having another downswing because I was made of medicine fail. Manic feels better, happier, though I end up with a lot of self-recrimination afterward due to not being able to shut up. I can’t help it when I’m manic; I literally cannot stop talking. It’s like a pressure if I try to shut up, that’s uncomfortable and I don’t like it, so I keep talking and talking and making myself look really stupid in the process. The clinical term for it is “pressured speech,” and they’re not kidding. It really does feel like there’s some sort of pressure running my mouth.
I still can’t believe I forgot my medicine like that. It’s not like me. I could’ve sworn I got up and took them but evidently that was just a dream. I had come home on Wednesday out of sorts so I crashed after dinner, at about 6:00. I thought I got up and took my medicine at some point; I recall getting up to go to the bathroom, which is usually when I’ll double-check my mediset to see if I remembered my medication, if I don’t go through my usual nighttime routine. I guess that didn’t happen how I thought. Whoops.
Note to self: take your medicine before crashing. You probably won’t wake up until the next morning, and you do that every time and end up taking your medicine late. Be proactive for once.
What’s your medication routine? Do you forget to take it sometimes? Does anyone else have pressured speech when they’re manic?